Laci

Living abroad is amazing. I don’t regret it for a minute. Well, some things I do regret. Not seeing my cousin getting married. Not being there for big birthdays. Not being there for graduations or to celebrate jobs or certifications. Not being there for family when they’re sick or injured. But this one is hitting me hardest right now. Today, my family is putting down our dog.  So here’s my tribute to my bestest furiend.

laci stache

 

We knew she was a sweetheart from the beginning.
Our neighbors came home with a white labrador named Graci. We came home with her sister, a more golden colored girl named Laci.
They were quite the pair: Laci and Graci. Graci was a bit more energetic, always trying to get Laci riled up, luring her into the lake and then not letting her back on shore. Laci preferred to just hang out and watch everyone play.
Maybe she was lazy. She definitely was my Lazy Laci. Is. She’s not gone yet, but it’s not long now.

laci tired
I’ve been the traveler in the family: living in Hawaii, living in Tampa, Thailand, and now Korea. I always found the times I was home to be a little hard. But my dog helped me through it. She was a good girl. Is still. She’s not gone yet, but it’s not long now.
She’d drive my family crazy trying to wake up and go out and eat at 6am. But with me, she found a way to just sleep in. We shared that trait: holding it until we couldn’t anymore before scurrying out of bed to go to the bathroom. She’d groan a bit and sit up and lay back down and repeat until I finally opened my eyes.
When I came home from Thailand, she was so happy. I think she didn’t believe it was me, but when she realized it, she was all jumping and cuddles.. like in the youtube videos. We hung out all summer. We would go for drives and hang out. We’d sleep in and eat and be lazy farts. We’d tan outside and then go back in when it was too hot or if it rained. I got her to the dog park a few times. And my lab, who was terrified of water (see Graci above), finally went back into the water. Babysteps. First up to her elbows, then up to her chest, and then one day she swam. She’s not a fetch kind of dog. She’s not a chase after and run like crazy dog. She’s a hang out by your side and race home when Mom’s car goes by kind of dog. She loves the Grinch as much as I do. Her favorite toy was my Grinch doll. Is. Is. She’s not gone yet.
She was proper angry with me when I told her I was going to Korea. When I came home for my cousin’s wedding, I found her on the couch and she just rolled over and waited for a belly rub.

laci bed This bitch could outsleep the best of us.
I left again and came back as a surprise last Thanksgiving.. two thanksgivings ago. The whole family was gathering at my uncle’s house, as usual, but everyone was bringing their dog. Except Laci. Nobody knew I was coming in except my brother and cousin-in-law, so I swooped home and picked her up and listened to her whine for an hour drive to Uncle Scott’s.  When my grandparents and father pulled up and were carrying stuff inside, I let Laci out and she just casually walked up and sniffed the grass. My dad said, ‘Whose dog is that?’ My uncle replied, “I don’t know. It looks like Laci.” And there I was. She was my helper that day.
I was home for a few weeks. The night before I left, I sat with her on the couch and we cried together. She cried for me. She just whined and got angry at me for leaving. I didn’t know it’d be the last time I saw her alive. I swear I didn’t know.
She’ll facetime with me. She’ll whine a bit and jump a little and tolerate a mediocre belly rub from my brothers or mom, but nobody could give her the belly rub that I could.
laci shirt

She was not a happy camper when I tried to keep her from shedding, but she tolerated it.
She’s an old lady. Loyal, Angelic, Calm, Intuitive. My Laci. My princess angel-face. I don’t know how I’m going to sleep at night when I’m at my mother’s house. I’m going to be so cold sitting on the couch without her to sit on my feet. She’s been there for me through so much. She’s been there for my family. She stayed with my brother when he was sick on the couch. She allowed the cats to cuddle her or bite her without retaliation. She’s been there for me through more than I can probably recall. And here I am, in Korea, when she needs me the most.
I won’t forget her. Her weird way of sitting with her legs apart. Her double high fives for my brother.laci high five Her shake when you told her to lay down. Finding her in the car when I left the door open for just a second. Towel time. Her hair everywhere. Everywhere. Her babydolls. Her ‘couldnt give a shit’ look for other dogs. Her stealing treats from the neighbor’s house. Her morning cuddles. Her lazy ass on the couch days. Smoking with her. She just wanted to be around us. She couldn’t decide if she wanted to be inside or outside usually. Her selective hearing the last few years. Her.

Soon it’ll be time to sleep, but only one of us will wake.

Sleep well, my princess angel face.

Laci Angelface

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