2019: Keep Trying

You’d think by now that I would know my strengths and weaknesses, my habits and distractions. Well, I do. But I also know that, despite my Taurus tendencies, I like to change things up, keep things interesting. I like to break habits and surprise myself.

In 2018, I failed in so many aspects. I failed my resolutions. I failed my goals. But that’s because I didn’t give credit to my strengths and weaknesses. This year, 2019, I will keep trying.

Resolution #1: Lose 20 lbs. Or 10. Or 15lbs. Lose a few inches where appropriate.
I will keep trying to lose weight, inches, and be a healthier, happier me. I am not unhealthy now. I weigh a sturdy 160lbs. This number sucks. “It’s not about numbers” except that it is. I did 3-week and 6-week challenges to better myself in this area. I literally have not gained or lost weight. My measurements are more or less the same as well, aside from a quarter inch on my arms. I steadily worked out. But toward the holidays I tapered out. I lost motivation and allowed myself to be distracted. I don’t regret it though. I just know that now is a time that I can depend on others to help me reach my goals. And not for $35/week. Sorry, FBBC — I can’t afford you.

Resolution #2: Track it. No excuses.
As seen in my previous posts, I am awful at keeping track of it. Whatever ‘it’ may be. I was trying to hold myself accountable by journaling. Let’s face it — I have a love-hate relationship with putting my life online. So I’m trying to be better at tracking my goals, my diet, my exercise, my budget.

Resolution #3: Budget
I tried last year. I didn’t try hard enough. I didn’t learn. This year, I will try to do better. I will sit down old school style if I have to and learn about budgeting. I’d like to make more money. How will I achieve this? Getting a raise is basically out of the question unless I get a promotion, which is coming up next. However, I have a lot of skills. I can cook, massage, and I’m a damned good voice actor. No more petty excuses. If I can make extra money, then I should be doing it. Maybe it’s time to get a second job and have no life. I already don’t have much of a life so there’s no excuse for my spending and not earning.

Resolution #4: reduce my debt by 40%
I hate that this is a resolution. The fact that I let it get out of hand is embarrassing enough. I have a goal to reduce my debt by 40%. Is this attainable? I don’t see why not? But I may not see because I haven’t budgeted. Damn.. back to #3.

Resolution #5: Crush it at work
I already sort of do that, so it isn’t inconceivable to do more crushing. Last year, I won November Team Member of the Month. This put me into the running for Team Member of the 4th quarter. I won. This puts me into the running for Legend (Hourly Team Member of the Year). I think I may stand a chance on this. What will it do for me though? Obviously, it looks good on paper — but how can I translate that into a promotion or use it to help me get into a position that will help me be where I want? I have a mentor at work now, I suppose that would be a question for her.

Resolution #6KEEP TRYING
I won’t give up. I will keep on trying. Whatever it may be — keep on trying.

 

Gaining Weight, Losing Accountability

I am doing terribly at this. As usual, I get into something for a week or so and then it just falls off.

I have been working out every day this week. I’ve eaten primarily vegetables, fruit, and meat/protein. I have been drinking water regularly. Weight isn’t changing.

 

I suck at this. I’ll keep trying.

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 8

Monday 12/3/18

Current Weight: 160lb (no change)

Workout: 30 min HIIT bootcamp with focus on chest and triceps

What I ate:

  • 1 cutie
  • 1 cup of cereal (i don’t know how that happened)
  • 2 combined cups of chicken, brussels sprouts, zucchini, peppers, cauliflower rice
  • 1 c ground turkey + 1/3c marinated veggies

What I drank:

  • 1 c. of coffee
  • 2 x16oz of water
  • 1 strongbow

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 6 + 7

This weekend was not my strongest.

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability Day 6: 12/1/18 (Sat)

Workout: None. I was still/again too sore to do anything

What I drank: A bit of water, at least 3 gin and tonics

What I ate:

  • at least 4 eggs over the course of the day
  • 1 chicken thigh
  • 3 lamb+beef patties (with previously stated eggs on top)
  • 3 crackers
  • a couple of sweeties/cuties?
  • I think that was it?

 

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability Day 6: 12/2/18 (Sun)

Workout: Bike ride for ~1 hour

What I drank:

  • 2 cups of coffee
  • 1 bottle of water
  • 1 glass of water

What I ate:

  • 2 bites of chicken
  • 1 fig
  • 1 cuban sandwich with plantain chips on the side
  • 4 zucchini latkes (aka fritters)
  • 2-3 slices of pizza

 

…. I told you it was a bad weekend.

 

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 5

Day 5 Check in!

Friday 11/30/18

What I ate:

  • 1c of oatmeal
  • 1 droewors
  • 2 c ground turkey, brussels sprouts, zucchini, yellow pepper, spaghetti squash
  • ground turkey quesadilla with marinated veggies and cheddar cheese
  • 2 cuties/sweeties
  • 2 crackers
  • 1 apple
  • 1 banana

What I drank:

  • not enough water for the day

Workout:

None — I was still too sore from stadiums the day  before

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 4

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 4 Check in

I’m 2 days behind. I’m so awful at these things. But this is me holding myself accountable.

What I ate:

  • .5c of oatmeal
  • 1 clementine/sweetie/cutie
  • .5c ground turkey, 1 c brussels sprouts/zucchini/pepper, .5c spaghetti squash
  • 2 marinated artichoke hearts
  • 2 pieces of droewors
  • 1 banana
  • 1 Gyro (pita, shredded lettuce, spicy harissa, zesty feta, gyro, tomato & onion, bean salad)

What I drank:

  • 1 c. coffee (black!)
  • 2x 16 oz cups of water
  • 2x 11.5oz bottles of Fiji Water
  • 1x 16.9oz bottle of water
  • most of a 775ml bottle of prosecco
    • (I won Team Member of the Month! So I celebrated)

Workout:

  • 1 hour of stadium-style bootcamp (stadiums, lunges, mountain climbers, more stadiums, more running, pushups, more stadiums, crying, pushups, and jumping jacks)

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 3

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 3 Check In

Wednesday 11/28/18

Workout: 30 min HIIT bootcamp with focus on —

What I ate:

  • 2 hardboiled eggs
  • 1/2 c of oatmeal
  • 3 Clementines/Cuties/Sweeties (whatever they’re called)
  • 2 stuffed cabbage with mashed cauliflower
    • ground lamb & beef, black beans, onion, pepper, tomato sauce, cabbage, mashed cauliflower
  • 1.5 c greek salad
    • tomato, cucumber, feta
  • 3 pieces of droewors (dried sausage, but not the gross kind)
  • 9 crackers with 9 cubes of cheese. small as hell cubes. like what’s the point?

What I drank:

  • 3x16oz water
  • 1.5 c of coffee with creamer (minimal amount)

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