2019: Keep Trying

You’d think by now that I would know my strengths and weaknesses, my habits and distractions. Well, I do. But I also know that, despite my Taurus tendencies, I like to change things up, keep things interesting. I like to break habits and surprise myself.

In 2018, I failed in so many aspects. I failed my resolutions. I failed my goals. But that’s because I didn’t give credit to my strengths and weaknesses. This year, 2019, I will keep trying.

Resolution #1: Lose 20 lbs. Or 10. Or 15lbs. Lose a few inches where appropriate.
I will keep trying to lose weight, inches, and be a healthier, happier me. I am not unhealthy now. I weigh a sturdy 160lbs. This number sucks. “It’s not about numbers” except that it is. I did 3-week and 6-week challenges to better myself in this area. I literally have not gained or lost weight. My measurements are more or less the same as well, aside from a quarter inch on my arms. I steadily worked out. But toward the holidays I tapered out. I lost motivation and allowed myself to be distracted. I don’t regret it though. I just know that now is a time that I can depend on others to help me reach my goals. And not for $35/week. Sorry, FBBC — I can’t afford you.

Resolution #2: Track it. No excuses.
As seen in my previous posts, I am awful at keeping track of it. Whatever ‘it’ may be. I was trying to hold myself accountable by journaling. Let’s face it — I have a love-hate relationship with putting my life online. So I’m trying to be better at tracking my goals, my diet, my exercise, my budget.

Resolution #3: Budget
I tried last year. I didn’t try hard enough. I didn’t learn. This year, I will try to do better. I will sit down old school style if I have to and learn about budgeting. I’d like to make more money. How will I achieve this? Getting a raise is basically out of the question unless I get a promotion, which is coming up next. However, I have a lot of skills. I can cook, massage, and I’m a damned good voice actor. No more petty excuses. If I can make extra money, then I should be doing it. Maybe it’s time to get a second job and have no life. I already don’t have much of a life so there’s no excuse for my spending and not earning.

Resolution #4: reduce my debt by 40%
I hate that this is a resolution. The fact that I let it get out of hand is embarrassing enough. I have a goal to reduce my debt by 40%. Is this attainable? I don’t see why not? But I may not see because I haven’t budgeted. Damn.. back to #3.

Resolution #5: Crush it at work
I already sort of do that, so it isn’t inconceivable to do more crushing. Last year, I won November Team Member of the Month. This put me into the running for Team Member of the 4th quarter. I won. This puts me into the running for Legend (Hourly Team Member of the Year). I think I may stand a chance on this. What will it do for me though? Obviously, it looks good on paper — but how can I translate that into a promotion or use it to help me get into a position that will help me be where I want? I have a mentor at work now, I suppose that would be a question for her.

Resolution #6KEEP TRYING
I won’t give up. I will keep on trying. Whatever it may be — keep on trying.

 

Gaining Weight, Losing Accountability

I am doing terribly at this. As usual, I get into something for a week or so and then it just falls off.

I have been working out every day this week. I’ve eaten primarily vegetables, fruit, and meat/protein. I have been drinking water regularly. Weight isn’t changing.

 

I suck at this. I’ll keep trying.

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 8

Monday 12/3/18

Current Weight: 160lb (no change)

Workout: 30 min HIIT bootcamp with focus on chest and triceps

What I ate:

  • 1 cutie
  • 1 cup of cereal (i don’t know how that happened)
  • 2 combined cups of chicken, brussels sprouts, zucchini, peppers, cauliflower rice
  • 1 c ground turkey + 1/3c marinated veggies

What I drank:

  • 1 c. of coffee
  • 2 x16oz of water
  • 1 strongbow

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 6 + 7

This weekend was not my strongest.

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability Day 6: 12/1/18 (Sat)

Workout: None. I was still/again too sore to do anything

What I drank: A bit of water, at least 3 gin and tonics

What I ate:

  • at least 4 eggs over the course of the day
  • 1 chicken thigh
  • 3 lamb+beef patties (with previously stated eggs on top)
  • 3 crackers
  • a couple of sweeties/cuties?
  • I think that was it?

 

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability Day 6: 12/2/18 (Sun)

Workout: Bike ride for ~1 hour

What I drank:

  • 2 cups of coffee
  • 1 bottle of water
  • 1 glass of water

What I ate:

  • 2 bites of chicken
  • 1 fig
  • 1 cuban sandwich with plantain chips on the side
  • 4 zucchini latkes (aka fritters)
  • 2-3 slices of pizza

 

…. I told you it was a bad weekend.

 

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 5

Day 5 Check in!

Friday 11/30/18

What I ate:

  • 1c of oatmeal
  • 1 droewors
  • 2 c ground turkey, brussels sprouts, zucchini, yellow pepper, spaghetti squash
  • ground turkey quesadilla with marinated veggies and cheddar cheese
  • 2 cuties/sweeties
  • 2 crackers
  • 1 apple
  • 1 banana

What I drank:

  • not enough water for the day

Workout:

None — I was still too sore from stadiums the day  before

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 4

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 4 Check in

I’m 2 days behind. I’m so awful at these things. But this is me holding myself accountable.

What I ate:

  • .5c of oatmeal
  • 1 clementine/sweetie/cutie
  • .5c ground turkey, 1 c brussels sprouts/zucchini/pepper, .5c spaghetti squash
  • 2 marinated artichoke hearts
  • 2 pieces of droewors
  • 1 banana
  • 1 Gyro (pita, shredded lettuce, spicy harissa, zesty feta, gyro, tomato & onion, bean salad)

What I drank:

  • 1 c. coffee (black!)
  • 2x 16 oz cups of water
  • 2x 11.5oz bottles of Fiji Water
  • 1x 16.9oz bottle of water
  • most of a 775ml bottle of prosecco
    • (I won Team Member of the Month! So I celebrated)

Workout:

  • 1 hour of stadium-style bootcamp (stadiums, lunges, mountain climbers, more stadiums, more running, pushups, more stadiums, crying, pushups, and jumping jacks)

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 3

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 3 Check In

Wednesday 11/28/18

Workout: 30 min HIIT bootcamp with focus on —

What I ate:

  • 2 hardboiled eggs
  • 1/2 c of oatmeal
  • 3 Clementines/Cuties/Sweeties (whatever they’re called)
  • 2 stuffed cabbage with mashed cauliflower
    • ground lamb & beef, black beans, onion, pepper, tomato sauce, cabbage, mashed cauliflower
  • 1.5 c greek salad
    • tomato, cucumber, feta
  • 3 pieces of droewors (dried sausage, but not the gross kind)
  • 9 crackers with 9 cubes of cheese. small as hell cubes. like what’s the point?

What I drank:

  • 3x16oz water
  • 1.5 c of coffee with creamer (minimal amount)

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 2

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 2 Check In

Tuesday 11/27/18

Workout: 30 min HIIT bootcamp with focus on abs & legs

What I ate:

  • 2 hardboiled eggs
  • 1 green apple with peanut butter
    • plus another tbsp of peanut butter
  • 1.5 c of stir fry
    • cauliflower rice, chicken thigh, egg, broccoli, snow peas, peppers, onions, carrots
  • 3 Clementines/Cuties/Sweeties (whatever they’re called)
  • stuffed cabbage with mashed cauliflower
  • 10 crackers with various slices of cheese (thin slices?)
  • 1 piece of droewors (dried sausage, but not the gross kind)

What I drank:

  • 3x16oz water
  • 1.5 c of coffee with creamer (minimal amount)

 

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 1

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 1 Check In

Monday 11/26/18

What I ate:

  • 2 Clementine/Sweetie orange thingys
  • 1 cup of greek salad (marinated olives & peppers, colorful tomato, cucumber, a wee bit of feta)
  • 1.5 cups of stir fry
    • Cauliflower rice, chicken thigh, eggs, broccoli, snap peas, carrots, onions, peppers, a wee bit of coconut oil for the veggies
  • A weird mashup of food for dinner
    • 3/4 cup of ground turkey & black beans, .5 cup of”candied” carrots (carrots that were cooked in a bit of coconut oil, no sugars added), ~.5 cup spaghetti squash
  • Blackberries (1 container)
    • I cheated and had some marshmallow fluff with it because it didn’t fit into the jar from the pastry bag. — My friends make REALLY AMAZING marshmallows from scratch and there’s no way I was going to waste their hard efforts. https://sugarrushmarshmallows.com/ for more info. (They didn’t ask to be part of this, but I’m insanely proud of them and will promote shamelessly for them when I can)
  • 3 bites of biltong

What I drank:

  • 1.5 c of coffee with tsp of creamer
  • 50oz of water (give or take)
  • .5 c of apple cider

Workout:

~45 min of HIIT with focus on triceps and chest

Accountability.

I admit. I’ve been rubbish at keeping my resolutions. I can blame whatever funks or bad energies  I want — but the reality is that I am accountable for myself.

I have tried multiple workout routines and tried to take advantage of the various deals that various workout facilities offer. $41 for 41 days of Power Yoga. $39 for 30 days of Barre classes. Initial Fees waived and multi-location available for a discounted price. I even made up my own where I pay more off my credit card for each pound I gained instead of lost!  It didn’t work. It wasn’t consistent. It didn’t work and wasn’t consistent because I didn’t work to keep it consistent.

I need to be held accountable. I just completed a 3 week challenge of $21 for 21 days. Except I paid extra for a diet plan that I could have found online. The difference this time is that the location and times of the bootcamp classes are convenient. I can stop by before work twice a week for a 30 min class or do 1 or 2 30 min classes right after work. They’re definitely tough classes, but the coaches and other attendees are really great. There’s such a nice little community within it and it’s encouraging me to stay. I won’t be able to afford it after this 6 week challenge ends at the end of the year.. but I’ll work my ass off until then.

On to the good stuff: How will I hold myself accountable?

  1. I attend these damn classes! There’s a weekly weigh in and a before and after measurement to see how much weight, inches, and body fat % is lost (or gained).
    • I weighed in at 159.3lb yesterday (Monday 11/26)
  2. I’m eating healthier and being honest about what I am consuming. How am I going to be honest? I’m going to write about it here. This will be my little diary. I can update it as the day goes by.
  3. My BFF Melanie — we’re both not happy with where we are in our bodies and we want to be better and stronger. We basically talk everyday anyway, but on Mondays we will weigh in and chat about our diets and workouts. It helps to have a partner to hold yourself accountable.

So there it is. Let’s get it done!

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