2019: Keep Trying

You’d think by now that I would know my strengths and weaknesses, my habits and distractions. Well, I do. But I also know that, despite my Taurus tendencies, I like to change things up, keep things interesting. I like to break habits and surprise myself.

In 2018, I failed in so many aspects. I failed my resolutions. I failed my goals. But that’s because I didn’t give credit to my strengths and weaknesses. This year, 2019, I will keep trying.

Resolution #1: Lose 20 lbs. Or 10. Or 15lbs. Lose a few inches where appropriate.
I will keep trying to lose weight, inches, and be a healthier, happier me. I am not unhealthy now. I weigh a sturdy 160lbs. This number sucks. “It’s not about numbers” except that it is. I did 3-week and 6-week challenges to better myself in this area. I literally have not gained or lost weight. My measurements are more or less the same as well, aside from a quarter inch on my arms. I steadily worked out. But toward the holidays I tapered out. I lost motivation and allowed myself to be distracted. I don’t regret it though. I just know that now is a time that I can depend on others to help me reach my goals. And not for $35/week. Sorry, FBBC — I can’t afford you.

Resolution #2: Track it. No excuses.
As seen in my previous posts, I am awful at keeping track of it. Whatever ‘it’ may be. I was trying to hold myself accountable by journaling. Let’s face it — I have a love-hate relationship with putting my life online. So I’m trying to be better at tracking my goals, my diet, my exercise, my budget.

Resolution #3: Budget
I tried last year. I didn’t try hard enough. I didn’t learn. This year, I will try to do better. I will sit down old school style if I have to and learn about budgeting. I’d like to make more money. How will I achieve this? Getting a raise is basically out of the question unless I get a promotion, which is coming up next. However, I have a lot of skills. I can cook, massage, and I’m a damned good voice actor. No more petty excuses. If I can make extra money, then I should be doing it. Maybe it’s time to get a second job and have no life. I already don’t have much of a life so there’s no excuse for my spending and not earning.

Resolution #4: reduce my debt by 40%
I hate that this is a resolution. The fact that I let it get out of hand is embarrassing enough. I have a goal to reduce my debt by 40%. Is this attainable? I don’t see why not? But I may not see because I haven’t budgeted. Damn.. back to #3.

Resolution #5: Crush it at work
I already sort of do that, so it isn’t inconceivable to do more crushing. Last year, I won November Team Member of the Month. This put me into the running for Team Member of the 4th quarter. I won. This puts me into the running for Legend (Hourly Team Member of the Year). I think I may stand a chance on this. What will it do for me though? Obviously, it looks good on paper — but how can I translate that into a promotion or use it to help me get into a position that will help me be where I want? I have a mentor at work now, I suppose that would be a question for her.

Resolution #6: KEEP TRYING
I won’t give up. I will keep on trying. Whatever it may be — keep on trying.

 

Accountability.

I admit. I’ve been rubbish at keeping my resolutions. I can blame whatever funks or bad energies¬† I want — but the reality is that I am accountable for myself.

I have tried multiple workout routines and tried to take advantage of the various deals that various workout facilities offer. $41 for 41 days of Power Yoga. $39 for 30 days of Barre classes. Initial Fees waived and multi-location available for a discounted price. I even made up my own where I pay more off my credit card for each pound I gained instead of lost!¬† It didn’t work. It wasn’t consistent. It didn’t work and wasn’t consistent because I didn’t work to keep it consistent.

I need to be held accountable. I just completed a 3 week challenge of $21 for 21 days. Except I paid extra for a diet plan that I could have found online. The difference this time is that the location and times of the bootcamp classes are convenient. I can stop by before work twice a week for a 30 min class or do 1 or 2 30 min classes right after work. They’re definitely tough classes, but the coaches and other attendees are really great. There’s such a nice little community within it and it’s encouraging me to stay. I won’t be able to afford it after this 6 week challenge ends at the end of the year.. but I’ll work my ass off until then.

On to the good stuff: How will I hold myself accountable?

  1. I attend these damn classes! There’s a weekly weigh in and a before and after measurement to see how much weight, inches, and body fat % is lost (or gained).
    • I weighed in at 159.3lb yesterday (Monday 11/26)
  2. I’m eating healthier and being honest about what I am consuming. How am I going to be honest? I’m going to write about it here. This will be my little diary. I can update it as the day goes by.
  3. My BFF Melanie — we’re both not happy with where we are in our bodies and we want to be better and stronger. We basically talk everyday anyway, but on Mondays we will weigh in and chat about our diets and workouts. It helps to have a partner to hold yourself accountable.

So there it is. Let’s get it done!

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