2019: Keep Trying

You’d think by now that I would know my strengths and weaknesses, my habits and distractions. Well, I do. But I also know that, despite my Taurus tendencies, I like to change things up, keep things interesting. I like to break habits and surprise myself.

In 2018, I failed in so many aspects. I failed my resolutions. I failed my goals. But that’s because I didn’t give credit to my strengths and weaknesses. This year, 2019, I will keep trying.

Resolution #1: Lose 20 lbs. Or 10. Or 15lbs. Lose a few inches where appropriate.
I will keep trying to lose weight, inches, and be a healthier, happier me. I am not unhealthy now. I weigh a sturdy 160lbs. This number sucks. “It’s not about numbers” except that it is. I did 3-week and 6-week challenges to better myself in this area. I literally have not gained or lost weight. My measurements are more or less the same as well, aside from a quarter inch on my arms. I steadily worked out. But toward the holidays I tapered out. I lost motivation and allowed myself to be distracted. I don’t regret it though. I just know that now is a time that I can depend on others to help me reach my goals. And not for $35/week. Sorry, FBBC — I can’t afford you.

Resolution #2: Track it. No excuses.
As seen in my previous posts, I am awful at keeping track of it. Whatever ‘it’ may be. I was trying to hold myself accountable by journaling. Let’s face it — I have a love-hate relationship with putting my life online. So I’m trying to be better at tracking my goals, my diet, my exercise, my budget.

Resolution #3: Budget
I tried last year. I didn’t try hard enough. I didn’t learn. This year, I will try to do better. I will sit down old school style if I have to and learn about budgeting. I’d like to make more money. How will I achieve this? Getting a raise is basically out of the question unless I get a promotion, which is coming up next. However, I have a lot of skills. I can cook, massage, and I’m a damned good voice actor. No more petty excuses. If I can make extra money, then I should be doing it. Maybe it’s time to get a second job and have no life. I already don’t have much of a life so there’s no excuse for my spending and not earning.

Resolution #4: reduce my debt by 40%
I hate that this is a resolution. The fact that I let it get out of hand is embarrassing enough. I have a goal to reduce my debt by 40%. Is this attainable? I don’t see why not? But I may not see because I haven’t budgeted. Damn.. back to #3.

Resolution #5: Crush it at work
I already sort of do that, so it isn’t inconceivable to do more crushing. Last year, I won November Team Member of the Month. This put me into the running for Team Member of the 4th quarter. I won. This puts me into the running for Legend (Hourly Team Member of the Year). I think I may stand a chance on this. What will it do for me though? Obviously, it looks good on paper — but how can I translate that into a promotion or use it to help me get into a position that will help me be where I want? I have a mentor at work now, I suppose that would be a question for her.

Resolution #6KEEP TRYING
I won’t give up. I will keep on trying. Whatever it may be — keep on trying.

 

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 8

Monday 12/3/18

Current Weight: 160lb (no change)

Workout: 30 min HIIT bootcamp with focus on chest and triceps

What I ate:

  • 1 cutie
  • 1 cup of cereal (i don’t know how that happened)
  • 2 combined cups of chicken, brussels sprouts, zucchini, peppers, cauliflower rice
  • 1 c ground turkey + 1/3c marinated veggies

What I drank:

  • 1 c. of coffee
  • 2 x16oz of water
  • 1 strongbow

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 4

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 4 Check in

I’m 2 days behind. I’m so awful at these things. But this is me holding myself accountable.

What I ate:

  • .5c of oatmeal
  • 1 clementine/sweetie/cutie
  • .5c ground turkey, 1 c brussels sprouts/zucchini/pepper, .5c spaghetti squash
  • 2 marinated artichoke hearts
  • 2 pieces of droewors
  • 1 banana
  • 1 Gyro (pita, shredded lettuce, spicy harissa, zesty feta, gyro, tomato & onion, bean salad)

What I drank:

  • 1 c. coffee (black!)
  • 2x 16 oz cups of water
  • 2x 11.5oz bottles of Fiji Water
  • 1x 16.9oz bottle of water
  • most of a 775ml bottle of prosecco
    • (I won Team Member of the Month! So I celebrated)

Workout:

  • 1 hour of stadium-style bootcamp (stadiums, lunges, mountain climbers, more stadiums, more running, pushups, more stadiums, crying, pushups, and jumping jacks)

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 2

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 2 Check In

Tuesday 11/27/18

Workout: 30 min HIIT bootcamp with focus on abs & legs

What I ate:

  • 2 hardboiled eggs
  • 1 green apple with peanut butter
    • plus another tbsp of peanut butter
  • 1.5 c of stir fry
    • cauliflower rice, chicken thigh, egg, broccoli, snow peas, peppers, onions, carrots
  • 3 Clementines/Cuties/Sweeties (whatever they’re called)
  • stuffed cabbage with mashed cauliflower
  • 10 crackers with various slices of cheese (thin slices?)
  • 1 piece of droewors (dried sausage, but not the gross kind)

What I drank:

  • 3x16oz water
  • 1.5 c of coffee with creamer (minimal amount)

 

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 1

Losing Weight, Gaining Accountability: Day 1 Check In

Monday 11/26/18

What I ate:

  • 2 Clementine/Sweetie orange thingys
  • 1 cup of greek salad (marinated olives & peppers, colorful tomato, cucumber, a wee bit of feta)
  • 1.5 cups of stir fry
    • Cauliflower rice, chicken thigh, eggs, broccoli, snap peas, carrots, onions, peppers, a wee bit of coconut oil for the veggies
  • A weird mashup of food for dinner
    • 3/4 cup of ground turkey & black beans, .5 cup of”candied” carrots (carrots that were cooked in a bit of coconut oil, no sugars added), ~.5 cup spaghetti squash
  • Blackberries (1 container)
    • I cheated and had some marshmallow fluff with it because it didn’t fit into the jar from the pastry bag. — My friends make REALLY AMAZING marshmallows from scratch and there’s no way I was going to waste their hard efforts. https://sugarrushmarshmallows.com/ for more info. (They didn’t ask to be part of this, but I’m insanely proud of them and will promote shamelessly for them when I can)
  • 3 bites of biltong

What I drank:

  • 1.5 c of coffee with tsp of creamer
  • 50oz of water (give or take)
  • .5 c of apple cider

Workout:

~45 min of HIIT with focus on triceps and chest

Accountability.

I admit. I’ve been rubbish at keeping my resolutions. I can blame whatever funks or bad energies  I want — but the reality is that I am accountable for myself.

I have tried multiple workout routines and tried to take advantage of the various deals that various workout facilities offer. $41 for 41 days of Power Yoga. $39 for 30 days of Barre classes. Initial Fees waived and multi-location available for a discounted price. I even made up my own where I pay more off my credit card for each pound I gained instead of lost!  It didn’t work. It wasn’t consistent. It didn’t work and wasn’t consistent because I didn’t work to keep it consistent.

I need to be held accountable. I just completed a 3 week challenge of $21 for 21 days. Except I paid extra for a diet plan that I could have found online. The difference this time is that the location and times of the bootcamp classes are convenient. I can stop by before work twice a week for a 30 min class or do 1 or 2 30 min classes right after work. They’re definitely tough classes, but the coaches and other attendees are really great. There’s such a nice little community within it and it’s encouraging me to stay. I won’t be able to afford it after this 6 week challenge ends at the end of the year.. but I’ll work my ass off until then.

On to the good stuff: How will I hold myself accountable?

  1. I attend these damn classes! There’s a weekly weigh in and a before and after measurement to see how much weight, inches, and body fat % is lost (or gained).
    • I weighed in at 159.3lb yesterday (Monday 11/26)
  2. I’m eating healthier and being honest about what I am consuming. How am I going to be honest? I’m going to write about it here. This will be my little diary. I can update it as the day goes by.
  3. My BFF Melanie — we’re both not happy with where we are in our bodies and we want to be better and stronger. We basically talk everyday anyway, but on Mondays we will weigh in and chat about our diets and workouts. It helps to have a partner to hold yourself accountable.

So there it is. Let’s get it done!

2018 Resolutions Mid-year Update

6 months in and half a dozen left in 2018. And I am doing a SHIT job with this.

 

Resolution 1: Follow through.
Whether it’s a text message, a blog entry, an application, whatever! I will follow through with it.

—UPDATE: You’ll notice my last blog post was the resolutions post. FAILED. And  I have had SO many drafted messages (text and email). So SUPER FAILED.

Resolution 2: Weight Loss
Yup. Back on the list. I have been through a lot with this one. One year I gained a lot and then next I lost it. Last year, I gained a lot again. Whether it was stress, diet, hormonal, or lack of exercise — it will not be repeated. I admit I am more than 160lbs. That’s bad. My final goal is to be between 120-130. If I get down to 140, I’ll be pleased. If I plateau at 135, I’ll be still quite happy.
How will I change this? I’ve already started watching what I’m eating. I’m cooking for myself again and tracking how much I’m eating and when.
I’m going to also give myself 30 day food challenges. 30 Days with no pizza. The next 30 with no Mexican food, etc. Let’s see how long that lasts. Taco Tuesday will rue the day.

—UPDATE: Not great. I’m down only about 5 lbs? I’m steady at 157lb. I’ve had a lot of stomach stuff going on this year though and I’m not sure how much to attribute to that. I’m getting a hernia repair surgery again tomorrow, so we’ll see what happens from that.
That 30 day food challenge thing? Meh. I made it halfway through the Whole30 Diet. I did make it 30 days without pizza.
Regardless of excuses — FAIL

Resolution 2.5: Exercise
To follow up the weight loss through diet, I am also challenging myself to be more active again. In Korea, I had hills and stairs to climb every day. I didn’t drive as often, so I wasn’t as lazy. Being back in Orlando, I don’t have the natural inclines or the beautiful hiking options. But I do have lakes and water, along with a new paddleboard. I want to get a few hours of paddling in a week if I can (weather permitting). I’m also going to take advantage of ‘New Student’ specials offered by gyms and fitness studios. The first will be 40 days $40 Power Yoga. The next will be 30 day Barre classes. Having these near to my work will allow me to keep to a schedule while avoiding traffic. Let’s see how it goes.

—UPDATE: Semi-fail. While I’m not working out regularly, I did do the 40 day Power Yoga and most of barre classes. I haven’t done much more than that though. I’ll jump into a hot yoga class when I can or go paddle board or bike ride once a week.

Resolution 3: Make that money!
My new job is wonderful. But no lie, it does NOT pay very well. True, I get paid better than others in my position at the company, but it’s just not that much!! So I need to get back my passion projects. Voice acting and massage therapy. Today I reapplied for my Florida massage license. As soon as I’m done with this cold, I hope to start my voice over demos again and start auditioning. I need additional income one way or another.

—UPDATE: FAIL!! I have not done a single massage since I got my license renewed. I auditioned for a few voiceovers but to no avail. It’s all I talk about is getting back into this or that and making a little extra money. This hernia repair will delay the massage part another month or two. Maybe I can Uber again?

Resolution 4: Stick with the Blogging!!
That was my resolution last year and I SUCKED at it. In fact, I went the ENTIRE year without a single blog post. Luckily, I’ve started a new blog that is not connected with this one. If you are interested in checking it out, I ask that you contact me privately. It’s not meant for everyone. Not yet at least.
I hope that I have some new experiences I can share via WittyLMT as well.

—UPDATE: obvious fail. But better than last year, I didn’t go a whole year.. only half of one. And that other blog I tried to create, I’ll put some of the posts up here because I have too many blogs going on.

Resolution 5: Visit 2 new places this year!
In the past, I have said that I will visit 2 new countries. That maybe more difficult now that I’m state-side and not making the money I did before, and living in a higher-cost-of-living location. This year, I’d like to visit 2 places in the US that I’ve never been. Considering that I’ve barely been around the US, this should be easy. Let’s rack up some mileage points, hey?

—UPDATE: FAIL. My BFF and I are planning on a trip to Arizona (and Canada, and Seattle, and Tennessee, and Utah, and…). But without having anything actually planned.. it may also be a future fail.

 

Halfway 2018 Update Overall: FAIL!! I am a loser. I am not doing well with this. My resolutions are not unrealistic, but I lack motivation, money, and friends. I’m working on it, but obviously not hard enough. Maybe this blog post will help whip me into shape. Literally and figuratively.

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2017 In review

 

If I could wrap 2017 into a single word, I believe “FAIL” is the most appropriate.

I don’t really even remember writing my resolutions. It’s been the longest and shortest year that I can remember.

The only thing I accomplished out of my resolutions was visiting 2 new countries as I had before. I had said I wanted to go to Taiwan — and to Taiwan I went. I did manage a trip to Japan before hand, but I was lucky enough to go to Taiwan with a very amazing friend. It was so great the entire time. I think a lot of it was also the company I had. We made a lot of fun memories.

But I definitely have gained weight, not organized any better (although I organize other people better than myself), I did not really see too many movies, and I am not de-hulkified — although maybe i had less to dehulkify about.

For those of you who don’t know by now, I have moved back to the US from Korea. I was released from my teaching position with about 12 hours notice. Shannon from Scratch wasn’t doing great either – – and right after I had moved into a new, better for cooking apartment. I wasn’t any closer to getting my business stuff going and voiceacting wasn’t getting better for me either. I made a last minute decision to leave. I gave myself 30 days and I was on a plane by Memorial Day weekend.
I spent the first month at home seeing family and traveling a bit to see everyone. I got to visit my older brother and his (now) wife in DC. Then I went to Canada for the first time. I was visiting a wonderful guy who I have had the pleasure of knowing for a couple of years now. We had a lovely short few days together, then I went back to DC for a few more days. So there — that’s how my resolution was accomplished.

Then I started looking for work. I drove for Uber and Lyft while looking for work. It was really difficult. I was convinced I would get a job out of Florida and be back on my merry way. I did not. I finally got a job after 4 months.

At the end of September I took an admin job at a Loews hotel in Orlando. I work at Universal for a great company with a lot of potential. I have 4 great bosses who couldn’t be more different from each other. I work across and with another admin who is amazing. I feel blessed to be in a position that I’m actually enjoying and with people I enjoy working with. The pay isn’t great, but it’s a start and probably better than some other people make. But there’s very little chance of raises unless I get into a higher position. But I’ll be in this position for a while I think. or so. I’m curious to see which direction I go with this. I could have gotten into a sales position in a hotel and probably been making 2-3 times as much.

Anyway — I’m still single at 31, with a regular office job for the first time in my life, and living at home with a very patient mother. So that’s my year in review. Next post: Resolutions.

Resolutions: 2017

I was lazy last year. I don’t think I ever posted the resolutions. My first resolution this year is to publish this before Feb 1, 2017. 🙂 (I’ve drafted it a few times and we’re more than a week into 2017).

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My actual RESOLUTION 1: As always — travel!
As with previous years, I once again would like to visit 2 countries again this year, hopefully new ones. Once again, Taiwan in on my list. I think this is the year I will finally get to go. I will definitely be in the US again this year. I hope to make it a good long trip this time, seeing my brother get married in October and a very good family friend in November. However, I wouldn’t protest to visiting a different part of the US other than DC or Florida this year. I will be in New Jersey for the wedding, but perhaps can go to California for a week or so to visit my multitude of friends living there. I wouldn’t protest going to Philippines, Thailand, or Vietnam again – – but different places that I hadn’t been to before. Or perhaps Cambodia. I guess only time will tell!

RESOLUTION 2: Weight Loss-ish

Another repeat resolution, but this time I’d like to get down to 130-135lbs (~60kg). I currently weigh in around 65kg on a bad day (~143lbs). If I can tone up and strengthen my body a little, then I think this should be an easy accomplishment. I may need to start eating my own food that I cook for others as well. To help me obtain this goal, I’m doing a very ‘new years ish’ thing: I joined a gym. However, it’s not a typical weights and cardio gym: I’m joining Body & Seoul – – a martial arts gym. I have up to 4 classes per week for the next 6 months. My goals are to take 3-4 each week (2 minimum).

RESOLUTION 3: Physical/Hygiene Care

I have never been very good at daily rituals: taking vitamins or pills, using facial products, brushing my hair, making my bed, etc. And although I do brush my teeth every day and clean my linens once a week (more or less), I am making a solid effort this year to get to a dentist. I’m embarrassed to say I don’t know the last time I went to one! Oral hygiene is very important and I have been seriously slacking. I also am going to make a solid effort to take vitamins each day and go through the skin care rituals each day (washing, toner, moisturizer, etc). I am now 30 and this is when things start to really go south, “they” say. I will do a better job of taking care of myself.

RESOLUTION 4: Organization.

It’s no big secret that I am not the most organized person on the planet. I’m not at a ‘slob’ or ‘horder’ level, by any means, but I definitely could stand to ‘adult’ a bit — as my friend says. On January 15th I’m moving into a new apartment and I am hoping it will bring a new sense of organization to my life. My living quarters will be organized and cleaner. I’m not a minimalist and probably never will be, so I won’t pledge to get rid of a bunch of crap. I like my crap. Also, ,my business will be better organized and recorded. Paperwork will be done every night (ugh. homework.). I want to try and organize my daily routine. New year, new me, blah blah blah. It will take a lot of work, and in about 10 weeks I’m going to recap here and laugh about what very likely will not change. Some things are meant to be.

RESOLUTION 5: De-hulk-ify

You don’t want to make me angry. You won’t like me when I’m angry. But it’s not someone wanting me to be angry or trying to make me angry. It’s my reaction. It’s shameful and I am more embarrassed than the poor person who is on the receiving end of my anger. Sometimes, I just lose my shit. And the fuckin’ tidal wave caused by Hurricane Shannon will bring tornado friends. Maybe that’s extreme. Maybe it’s not. A few people have seen me upset, but it is VERY VERY rare for someone to see the dark side. The TRUE dark side. I don’t want to have to hide that anymore.. and not because it needs to be hidden.. but because it doesn’t need to exist at all. I would like to be more accepting of situations and better handling of the BS that life throws at me.

 

Five is a good number to leave on. Let’s see how we do.

 

Oh wait, no there’s one more.

RESOLUTION 6: Watch more movies

That’s not a big one really. But I guess I hadn’t realized there were cult-classics that I just have not seen! Tonight, for example, I watched When Harry Met Sally. Yeah, I had NEVER seen it. I’m not really a romantic comedy person (aside from the occasional period pieces, but still not really comedy), so perhaps that explains it. But it was sweet. And every other scene was either great or awful. So I want to make a list of all the new movies I see this year. Whether I watched it at home, a friend’s, or in the theater.. I will hopefully keep track of all I watch.

Kk. I’m done now.

Wish me luck.

2015: Resolutions Review

 

Let’s review my resolutions for 2015…

Original: 1. I want to lose weight. Just like everyone else. Except this has to happen. I can’t handle looking at myself in photographs or on a scale. I have never weighed more than I do now and I don’t ever want to again. The number is so despicable to me that I can’t even say it aloud.

Resolution: Lose 15lbs.

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!! I was close to 165lbs and am now down to about 143lbs. 10 kg down. 20 lbs. Well done, me!

2. Get laid. Seriously, I thought I was being practical last year with that whole ‘get laid 20 times’ thing.. such bullshit. However, I refuse to give way to this one. I will get laid at least 20 times – it counts even if it’s with the same person. No need being a slut about it. I’m 28, not 22.
MISSION VERY ACCOMPLISHED!!! A special thank you to those who participated in helping me achieve this goal. 😉 You know who you are. 

3. Visit 2 new countries again! Last year I had hoped it would be Japan and Taiwan. Instead, it was Japan (twice) and Philippines. I would still like to visit Taiwan this year, my goal instead of Japan is Malaysia. Luckily I have a friend who lives in Kuala Lumpur who I have made many promises to visit….

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!! I managed to visit Malaysia and Dubai in 2015. I also got to revisit Hong Kong and Japan. I’d say it was a very good travel year.

4. VISIT GARY in KL!! (gary – this WILL happen)

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!! Thank you Gary and Jon for hosting me and putting up with my elephant-itus legs. It was an honor becoming a lobster with you Gary. And I’m more than pleased to say that Gary swung through Korea and we had a lovely champagne brunch…. and looked WAY better than we did in Malaysia. Boys, congrats on putting a ring on it! (your finger. a ring on your finger.)

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5. Save 10K – something that is not as easy to do in the US. It’s pretty simple for people working in Korea. When my flight and housing are paid for, I get a pension, and hopefully make a few $ on the side by selling food and what not… this should be easy.

                 MISSION NOT QUITE ACCOMPLISHED!! 😦 I’m more than halfway there though! Yay for that. And it is possible that I can have that by the time I get home if I don’t go spending it all again. Damn. I’m bad at this one.

And so, with 2015 gone and 4/5 resolutions completed, I’d have to say that I did damn well! Look for the new blogs with my 2015: A Review and another with my 2016 resolutions.

 

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